Goodbyes

Goodbyes are not good. They are bad. I don’t know when the not good changed to hatred but now I hate goodbyes and all its brothers and sisters, intellectually speaking I hate all of its kinds. They are like that wall of the perfect room which will get all watery due to the seepage of water and take away all the perfection from the perfect room. They are inevitable. At some point we have to face them. I think if that point comes but again then the hatred towards the whole idea of bye-bye grows.
But I have another problem I cannot handle such problems without actually finding something which at least give my heart and brain some satisfaction. So from today onwards I will stop saying goodbyes (and tatas) and instead of that I will say “until next time”, well my brain is satisfied because it is surely not any kind of a goodbye and my heart is satisfied because it gives the poor guy some hope.

The Face Wall

Sometimes you see people and you know they are different rather special would be a better word. He is a banker, nice person very quiet, calm, someone you will notice for being simple. Well first I should tell a little bit about his history, well-educated family background and he was an adopted son, the only one in the family, his parents died of cancer, he lost his mother at a very small age and then his father when he turned 24, he donated approximately everything he inherited, which was about 50 million. So what he actually inherited was a house which he purchased from the inherited money, an average small house in a normal locality. Let us hear the story from the man himself……………………
I will start straight away. The wall of my bedroom was not plastered so water seeped through it to make shapes and other stuff on the wall, you all should have seen that, but this was nothing normal, whatever appeared on that wall entered my life, first was a face, face of my best friend, john, I met him at the bank and soon we were really good friends, actually he was my only friend. Maybe I didn’t need any one else. Second was the women from the coffee shop we too became friends, but she went after her wedding, she went to Australia. The third was my dog “killer”, he was just opposite to his name the smallest and the cutest dog I ever saw in my life. Fourth my neighbor and many more. Until now what so ever came on the wall came into my life too within two days. But now the picture on the wall stopped changing.
But when the face was of the girl of dreams appeared, it made me wait, wait long, but she came and she came directly to me, well because our bags exchanged at the mall, then the first time I went to a disco, there she was sitting, enjoying her cocktail, I went to her and said hi and asked that what did she do except making men drop their jaws with her beauty. She was extraordinary, she was a lecturer, and she was the rarest and the deadly combination of beauty with brains. My first date went very good, which resulted in many more.
That day, she was coming over to my house for dinner, I had everything ready, except the cork opener, “I don’t know how the hell I missed that, my neighbor has borrowed it I will be right back” I said and left. When I came back she was there, lying still on the floor, which blood all over her white sparkling dress. When I came to my senses, I called john, he came over and then we decided we should call the police as he made out that she was stabbed in her back, so I called the police, they came and went in and came out and said there is nothing inside, I ran up the stairs stumbled and fell and fainted. When I came to my senses I took them to the room and there was nothing, no blood, nothing and then I asked about john and then they said when they came here, there was no one here but me. I took the police officials in the bedroom to show them the picture of the girl I was talking about on the wall. The wall was plastered and clean. I fainted again.
Now when I came to my senses I was strapped and a beam of light hurting my eye, soon enough I realized I was in a Citi scan machine, doctor told me my brain was internally injured when I fell from the stairs. I asked about the cops; doc. said they left as there is nothing they could have done. I told him my story, he told me to call john, well I didn’t had my cell phone so he asked for the number and I told him, “the number you r are calling does not exists, please check the number”. I didn’t understand anything, but my doctor did and he said that he thought I was hallucinating things, the word sounded really good in movies, but not now, now it sounded impossible. Doc. thought that the injury to my brain may have stopped my hallucination; I said I can prove that everything is real, I have photos, he said let us check them, I went home and there were no photos, killer was also not there. Now I understood why always people in public places looked at me as if I was mad. That wall was the masterpiece of my imagination.

I dodged the bullet but still I am dead………….

I am dead, you may hear me breathing but actually I’m dead. I don’t understand what killed me, maybe you can help. Usually I introduce myself and do such stuff, I should say I used to do those things but now I won’t and I will cut the bullshit and come directly on the story, here it goes……..
I was joking, I am dead, but I got to introduce myself, so I am Steve people call me Setvey I don’t know why they do so because the length is the same so it’s not a nick name of some kind or whatever, just let it be. I am a bad person rather I was a bad man since now I am dead. I have done every illegal thing which has a maximum penalty of being sent to jail for five years. I like to play poker, which kind of is responsible for my current condition, I owe ‘mamba’, mamba is the man you don’t want to owe and if you owe him, you want to pay back and when I say you want to, I mean it. I on the other hand, i am very bravely, foolish and idiotic because I said I won’t give his money which I don’t have and I have my reason, that mamba cheated, that dumb could never had beaten me in poker. So I think, I don’t owe him, but who owes mamba is decided by mamba, so I am in shit and I am trying to enjoy the last days of life because soon enough I would be lying somewhere unclaimed, well of course I will be dead. Well now I owe mamba so I can take loan and owe anybody until and unless they don’t know that I owe the “******” because anyhow, I am a dead man walking.
With all the borrowed money, I went to the best hotel in the city to have the best last days of my life, there I found a family very loving family there were two kids a girl and a boy both were really adorable and the family was very welcoming, of course, without knowing my background and going by the suit I was wearing I really looked like someone big , for the first time in my life that too in my last days I came to know how is it to be in family and have family. I know what you are thinking that I am some orphan wrong; ok I know your second guess too parents killed in theft or robbery, again wrong, my parents died natural death and the thought I was some lawyer, well there was nothing wrong with my childhood or my life at all. I am just like that. I liked risks and I didn’t knew what I wanted so I ended up quite good. Well this family was a cop family the mother, father both were cops and their children wanted to be cops so I was quite unlikely around them but I was enjoying it I was happy, I was like in a family after a long time.
Well they say god is omnipresent, maybe, but I am damn sure that Lucifer is too omnipresent. I can’t say it was my fate which took me down but the fact that I was sitting in the best hotel of the city, it was freaking obvious that if mamba comes out for dinner, he will come here and that bastard did. He sees me and pulls out his magnum 37.8 caliber, gold plated, the most expensive gun in its genre and tries to shoot me well I dogged one ,and I just went for cover, it just slipped my mind that I was sitting with a family, soon I realized the bullet I dogged had hit the small girl, I saw the eyes of that little angel the stoned eyes, time stopped, after a more than a decade a tear came from my eyes, time stopped for me not for mamba the whole family was dead and I was still breathing having two guns by me given to me by the cops I stood up and pulled the trigger first shot mamba dead I wasted two more bullets on him then I fired everywhere else killing his apprentices. Then I kept it on my head and pulled the trigger, the magazine was empty by then. God came and said to me your life is worth all of theirs the kids and their parents and you want to kill yourself. It was my natural reaction to try to save myself from the bullet but I actually shot the little girl, I was dead then and there, I don’t know what was carrying me but I took mamba’s gun and took off.
When I came to my senses I was in a hospital well I had dogged around 10 bullets that day but I caught four bullets too, because of which I was here, I am the mafia king now, how did that happen, well mamba was from Africa and the gold gun of his represented him or his position which was owned by me now. so I was the new mamba, yes, even I was surprised mamba was not his name it was the name of his position, the two month extended coma made me for a second forget those innocent faces but I had to redeem myself, well I could not have but I had to make their sacrifice worth something and I wanted to change things I wanted to take from the rich and give to the poor and stuff like that; but as I said I don’t know about god but Lucifer is omnipresent for sure and my dream broke and with me falling from the bed of that luxurious hotel. I went down for the dinner in the hotel’s restaurant and the same things happened. Same family, same little angles, just this time I didn’t dogged any bullets rather I took one right in the heart. Well I may have died but that one moment was more than all I ever lived. I saw the little girl’s eyes this time I saw fear and tears but they had life and I had done something good for the very first and last time in my stinking life, see you in hell.

India is Nailing it ..........

It Ain’t Over...

Nothing to read nothing to write,
Now it seems I am really bright.
But finally relived from my plight,
I am really happy to end this fight.

The fight with books,
Had me off my hooks,
I don’t know how I survived,
Now all I want to do is glide.
Glide in the fresh air
And show my real flair.
Now I want to have an affair,
Because after the fight everything is fair.

But somewhere down inside I know
The winter is far, it is fake snow.
It ain’t the time to hibernate
It’s just the time to sate,
‘Cause the war ain’t over.
We will again have to hover
In the streets of books,
Where we will look like crooks.
So live the moment to the full
So have fun and don’t be dull.
‘Cause this time ain’t coming back
What we don’t have now we will always lack.
So get ready and say bon voyage
Let’s to something to make it large……………….

Brain Messes it!!!!!!!!!!

Hell!!!!!!!!!!! .Well I agree not a very good word to start off with, but today watching the dark blue-black sky turning into whitish-pinkish orange sky it hit me that our brains rather “brain” in general always messes up with beauty and serenity, every freaking time. Now you should be thinking that how in the name of god, it hit me by seeing the sky change its color and texture in a very gradual but continuous way(I cannot help explaining the phenomena ,it was that good, I just had to tell about it), when I was mesmerized due the scene of orangish sunrays only confined in a patch on a building at dawn, the damn brain came in and broke my imagination and he/she had brought his Newton and Einstein with him/her and said it’s not magic, nothing is so called “divine” in this phenomena ,it’s refraction and reflection of light, I don’t even like the words damn it. It messed up with my whole childish imagination, this brain of ours always comes between dreams , creativity and the emotional side or the “soul” side or what so ever you may call it, it messes up all the time.
Not just this, take anything else, like say, art, if I see a painting I have two ways to go. I go into my imagination tunnel and have a refreshing and enjoyable slide through it and imagine the painting or perceive the painting in any way I want to. If we go this way then we will like all the paintings because we are imagining it to be something, which is purely, based on our imagination just the canvas or in physics language which our brain understands “frame of reference” is provided by the artist. The other way is I ask the artist, what is he trying to show and then tell my brain to perceive it in that way, if I can do so; well and good otherwise the artist is dumped. An artist if you ask me should be judged on the basis that his/her art can be perceived in how many no. of ways, rather than, how many people can perceive the painting in which he/she wants them to perceive and see.
Now i think that how can be something wrong with the brain, it has to be good, after all, it is the most wanted thing in the whole universe. Then where does it go wrong, where that child, where is the imagination, the childishness or the unbrainyness and the lunacism (these not approved words but I think you got what I want to say) to believe what so ever we want to, weather it is logical or not, weather it pleases our brain or not.
Logic was supposed to enter where imagination was intersecting and different people among us had to communicate with the same things and the counter inflicting thoughts had to be given a common point, something which could have explained and proved to peace off everyone. But today logic is all what we are left with and it’s not good because if even the dreams are logical, if the dreams are seen by weighing all the options present then the dreams will not be big and if dreams will not be big we won’t have a target we cannot achieve. So we will never outperform ourselves. We will never actually progress in any way because we had already decided what track to run and what position to achieve and if we already know the winner this isn’t a race and when life is not race it’s not life…………………….

Glass of Milk and Honey

I just realized the best thing about a night out is that you can go for a morning jog; I mean you can go for a jog even at dawn. Which is near to impossible for people like us; I very well know that if we sleep, we cannot get out of the bed at dawn and go for a morning walk or jog or whatever. I am quite sure that I am not at all wrong in using the word “we” here. So, the best part of going to jog at dawn is when you have jogged an odd 2 km and you are fully emptied, you find a clean and “safe” spot, safe from dogs, well that comes due to some personal experience so whatever. Once you are seated you look up in the sky and the sky looks like a glass of milk and then you realize that there is some honey in the glass too, well nothing is wrong with you it is mouthwatering for all of us. After some time it seems like there is a fountain of honey coming out of the glass of milk and then it seems that the glass is too small for the honey , but still the honey is not overflowing and if you are lucky enough to have this view in the sky with a farm right below it, then it seems that the honey is overflowing but we cannot see it fall on land ‘cause it is not actually falling on the ground but coming from beneath and in this time when you were mesmerized to the beauty ,you will finally realize that it is not a glass of milk but it is a glass of honey with a little amount of milk in it, and well this the time you head back home.

Having this mesmerizing and pleasing experience we get to know the purity, serenity and the beauty of “our” home called the “world”, “earth” , ”Universe”………….this glass of milk is for “everyone”.

If god decided it to be for everyone then why there are people hungry and thirsty, why don’t they have their share of milk and honey. When did it happen? When was it decided that a fucking piece of paper has more worth than something as pure as emotions, when did we decide who gets the milk and the honey, when did the thing called heart die when was it replaced by blood pump and when did we turn against GOD ?? When……………………Why…………………….I don’t want to turn against the almighty, I will not. Why is the worth of a human being less than materialistic things, how can we even compare something non-living with something living. With these questions I dozed off I hope today I don’t dream because if I do I think they will really horrific. What can be more horrifying than the fact that something as invaluable as life, laugh, soul and something having no value at all like money and so called power are present at two sides of a beam balance and are measured against each other……………………….

Death Tells You the Worth of Your Life

This is my first acclaimed short story so please tell me my errors................

“Death Tells You the Worth of Your Life.” I was lucky enough that I understood its worth before dying.

Hi, I am Farhan Joe Sharma; yes that’s my name, a name free from all the discriminations, a name which will give you no idea who I am and it should be like that because the whole and sole purpose of having a name is just to make it easy for us to address that person, that’s it, nothing else. So we will let it that way, you can call me fosh as all my friends do.

The piece that you are going to read is my story and before you read the extract just remember one thing whatever happens In your life never start hating or even stop loving your life (both are different things) and when I say no matter what happens I mean it. So let’s start:

!! How it all Started…………….

It was the first time I had actually studied for an exam and I was really confident that I will nail it today. It was maybe the fourth or fifth time I entered the exam hall without a chit or some notes, once I got the paper I had the feeling for the first time that well 100% marks are possible and with all enthusiasm and knowledge (knowledge for the first time and enthusiasm was also different because of the fact that this time for the very first time I was aiming for a 100 and not 40). Two hours went like in a blink of an eye and I was still positive for the 100,I was loving it for the first time, and then for me out of nowhere three of my teachers came and asked me to come to the principal’s office I asked why and they said they found this chit under my table and I will be awarded a 0 for the bravery I did, I was numbed, for the first very time when I was writing everything from my memory and not from some stick pad chit, they accuse me of cheating, I mean I have passed innumerous number of exams using that yellow chit, I was the most successful of them all in cheating and today when I had decided to change they catch me when I was not doing it. That day I learned if we do something wrong we have to pay for it always. I started hating myself for all the things I have done in past I wanted to break free from them but they were chained to my soul I had to drag them.

!! The first push.………………..

Well my work has finally paid off in the field I was selected for the club team and I was enjoying it, the 9 miles round and the net practice finally paid off I was happy. My first match: I was a bit nervous but really confident because I knew I will not let this chance go out of my hands because this is the first step towards what I have worked for from 4 months. As I thought I nailed it in the first match, I was the man of the match as my team said, I was not awarded to be so but that was due to some internal politics as my coach told me, match after match I was improving and today we have to go to some other club to play this was my second step towards what I have dreamed, I knew there were thousands of steps still to take but that does not decreases the value of a single step, I was excited and happy and as I entered the field there was some other keeper practicing in the nets, I thought maybe they wanted a spare if I get hurt or something like that and as I was running my rounds my captain came and told me that coach was calling me and the coach said that I was not going today, I did understood what he was saying but I said I can’t understand what he was trying to say and then he said that I was out of the team and I enquired him why so and he said that the club sponsor’s son was a wicket keeper too and as the sponsor wants his son in the team I had to be kicked out. I was stoned it was like Muhammad Ali punched me in my stomach and simultaneously Khali kicked my ass like a serious double blow. That day I started hating the world.  

!! The second push…………………..

I saw my best friend kissing my girlfriend. (Read the next to get the story)

!!The third push…………………….

Well I don’t know what I should have done but here is what I did: I went to them told my girlfriend that she was a pile on and blah blah blah…..and then I punched my best friend twice on the face which forced four of his plague teeth out of his mouth which was full of blood and I came back home. After sometime my mother entered my room and slapped me , I saw her crying and then my father came and slapped me twice and said we have to pay a visit at the police station where my so called timid best friend and his cowardly father was waiting for us. That day I started hating everyone.

!!The Final push Down the cliff………………….

The only thing I was proud about now that I had the muscle power to kick anyone’s ass and this misconception was cleared by a fat ass, when I tried to stop him to bully the small kids. This may not seem the last push but it was, because I stopped not loving my life and started hating it. This was my break point now I had nothing I was proud about.

Everything was over, I thought this is it I should stop living now, but before dying I wanted to eat something, so wandering in the streets of Pune I went into a restaurant my mother called and asked where I was so I told her the name of the restaurant. I could make from her voice she was still angry; I ordered a coke and a lot of ice for my punched blackened eye. I was thinking in my mind how I should kill myself, I was thinking of something causing no pain because pain was the only reason I was thinking like that (like shit), but as I was thinking I heard a “boom” and after that I could not hear anything, everything went in slow motion and then a sofa came flying towards me and it dragged me till the wall and slammed me against it, the first time I felt I was so near to my death and in that moment I actually understood the worth of life, my cellphone was shattered I didn’t actually care and I thought maybe I have also broken some of my bones, then some helper came running and shouting “bakery mien bomb blast” the rest you know. As soon as I realized what had taken place I thought I should call mom and tell her that I was fine, now I was sad about my cellphone I somehow managed to stand with the help of some people and  then they took me to the hospital I was still out of my senses but there was only one thing I wanted to do right now and that was to inform my family that I was okay but I was taken to the hospital and rightly so and I went unconscious, the next time I opened my eyes I had my whole family looking at me with thirsty eyes (not the best word but they were actually thirsty to see my eyeballs again). As I opened my eyes everybody started crying (not started) with a huge smile on their faces that moment told me the worth of “MY life”.

Sometimes everything seems to go wrong and our life seems to be worthless but we don’t own our life fully it’s a gift from god not to us but the people who love us, no matter what mistake we do redemption is always possible, we may hurt the ones we love but never ever anything we do will make them to stop loving us. Life’s worth is not by how much we love it but it is by how much others love us and that is the only thing that should matter.

Everyone is precious and if you think no one loves you, you are wrong ‘cause some fosh do loves you …

“Death Tells You the Worth of Your Life.” I was lucky enough that I understood its worth before dying.

Quotes I

1.As we start any race we start with full dynamism but the time that matters the most is the last second 'cause that decides the result and thats what matters.

2.Compulsion does not act as the promoter to do hard work it acts as the barrier.

3.Don't compromise with your dreams,rather improvise your ways.

4.Dreams can turn your future the way you dreamed it to be or the past you want to forget,the actions you take today makes the difference.

5.Even when the GODS fail we survive this implies we are better.

6.Everyone has something graved for them in life some digg it up some wait for it to sprout out,i prefer digging..............

7.Happiness is just the perception of optimism.

8.It's not what you plan to do makes you obtrusive but its what you do when your plan fails.

9.Life is a string,how you live it decides it breaks off or binds many things in the process.

10.No one can tell you that you are not good enough 'cause other than you no one can actually know.

We all are Racists

All the people in the world discriminate
All of us have feelings of like and hate
For him or her for different reasons,
But our feelings can change like seasons,
Just as we know the person from the inside
The love can sprout out and hate goes aside.

All of us discriminate on terms of beauty,
She is pretty and he is cutey,
Phrases like these forces me to think
How can we decide it in a blink?
That who is nice and who is not,
Just by seeing who is ugly and who is hot.
Why don’t we value the human worth?
When beauty is something that is decided by Urth,
How can we develop the feeling of love or hate?
Based on something so whimsical called fate.

People ask my name
Maybe to search for my fame
Then they ask my surname, I wonder why
But I tell them because I am not shy,
And as I tell them, they guess my religion
My caste and guess I come from which region,
And I think on that; how the hell can they decide
That I am the low or the high tide,
How can they say I am untouchable?
Or I weak or I am not able,
Without knowing my skill,
Without measuring my will
How can they
Think or say,
That I am incompetent or bad,
This really makes me sad,
And gives my heart intolerable pain,
That they discriminate on something which is so uncertain. (Name)

I don’t know what my name my creed,
Has to do with my breed,
The plant doesn’t just depends on the seeds
The Path to which it leads,
Is decided by how it is nurtured.
How our soul is being nurtured,
Decides our destination,
Not out color, creed or nation.
I can keep talking till the end of light
But that is not going to make things right,
Actions are what we need to stop this racism
‘Cause it is killing the lone feeling of humanism……

Fear

 From today my fears will be my fringe
‘Cause I have decided to dare and change……………………..

Draining down the road with flow
I realized I was someone’s glow,
Now the glow is gone and there are tears
All this is because of my freaking fears.

I have to come over them now
But I have no idea how?
Lost in the mist of my fears,
I have avoided them for years
But it’s time to put an end,
‘Cause it’s time to change the trend.

I am going in for the fight,
Knowing everything will be alright,
I have to prove my might
And win this fight.

It’s time to stop the descend
And prove my transcend,
Nothing is out of my range
All I have to do is dare and change.

My engulfing fears
My soul blackening tears,
It’s time I dare
For me and the ones who care.
This time I am not backing out
This time I am in the bout,
Ready to contend and fight
And put you out of sight.
You had been the reason of my plight,
Today is when I prove my might.

From today my fears will be my fringe
‘Cause I have decided to dare and change……………………..

Waiting

But I can’t give up on waiting

So I sleep more dreaming……………………………….

My eyes have given up on you
My heart’s starting to think do I love you?
The wait has been stretched too long
This is my last song,
It’s time I move on
And accept it that you are gone.

You never said you will be back
And without you everything’s turned black
I can't blame you for my pain
‘Cause I was the one who wasn’t sane.

You never said to wait
But my life was this time the bait,
I had no other choice
I had lost my only reason to rejoice
I had to give it my last try
‘Cause I was the one suffocating in my cry.
All my tears are now dry
It’s not the eyes, the heart; it is the one to cry.

I was wrong all the way
From the very first day
When you came in my dreams
And became the queen of my realms.
I was wrong to think dreams come true
My illusionary whims force me too rue,
Everything was fine, until that bleep
Broke my dream and interrupted my sleep
But you were too good to give up
I wish I had never woken up,
But I can’t give up on waiting
So I sleep more dreaming……………………………….

Grief

Now I don’t want the pain to be brief

‘Cause I really want to feel your grief………………………….
Tears, sorrow and grief is all I have
‘Cause that’s all I ever gave.
I don’t blame you to do this to me
I forced you to be,
This hard and batter my soul
And Make my tears howl.

It was me all the way
Who did the slay,
Of the feelings and your heart
This time I don’t have the dart
You have, make sure it hits the right spot
Make sure the hit scatters the clot,
The clot of sorrow and grief
And please make it brief.

I don’t think the please would matter
‘Cause I am the one made the love scatter
I am the culprit; I have done the wrongs to you
But still I want to say it one last time I love you.

But I don’t want you to forgive me
I just want you to punish me
To feel the pain I gave you
To feel the grief I gave you,
I want to hurt my soul and heart
I wanted to be crumbled by the same cart,
That I ran over you
And tell myself I bruised you.

Now I don’t want the pain to be brief
‘Cause I really want to feel your grief………………………….

Missing the magic

‘Cause today I am missing the magic

I am really missing the magic………………………..

I am missing the illusion
And I don’t know the solution,
Please help me to overcome my grief
The sorrow is shaking my belief,
That we will again create magic
Oh! Really I am missing the magic.

I cried remembering the time we smiled
Today I am all alone, I feel like being exiled,
From our perfect world to this lone land
The happy time runs out hand like smooth sand.
This wearing time has become stagnate
I want to get back before it’s too late,
‘Cause I can’t survive without you
Reason is simple that I love you,
I hope we will again create the magic
‘Cause I am really missing the magic.

Illusion of love and never ending felicity
Has been already cleared, by my dripping tears
I don’t like this clarity
I have lived the illusion for years.

I want it back
In my sack
I don’t know what I miss
The hugs, the touch or the kiss
I want to live that time again
Otherwise life is such a pain
I want you to watch my back again
I want us to create the magic again
‘Cause today I am missing the magic
I am really missing the magic………………………..

Death

It’s time to be graved in infinite depth

‘Cause it’s time of your death………………………

Making graveyards on its way, walking through the silent path
Having Red eyes and a blackened soul here comes the wrath
Here it comes as the dead end
To finish your soulful blend,
Putting an end to all of your vitality
And proving your mortality,
Doesn’t matter you are dumb or wise
It is the time of your demise
Here it is to grave you to the depths
And join you with the deads.

It’s time to go to the other side
Leaving everything, everyone aside
It’s time to go to live your afterlife
‘Cause the clock says it’s the end of your life.

I agree its black, dismaying and painful
Now you think have you lived life to the full
It’s time all your materialistic things are shed
‘Cause it’s time when you are declared dead.

People may remember you or some may not
But I don’t think that will affect you a lot
‘Cause these things are too small and won’t matter
‘Cause your soul may live or scatter,
But you won’t ever again be seen
On your death we all will keen,
But you won’t feel anything again
You won’t ever laugh nor have a gain,
It’s time to be graved in infinite depth
‘Cause it’s time of your death………………………..

Failure

‘Cause my failure is decided by me

‘Cause today the gods are in me………………………………


I failed my own aspirations
I killed my own inspirations,
I have nothing loose
I have nothing to choose,
My soul is graved
And I have failed.

Don’t known how to fight this failure,
Have no idea when I will come out of this seizure
Well I know one thing for sure
I will find the cure
To this fatal malady
I have to do it in a jiffy
Because I don’t want to cease to exist
Call the gods and tell them I am going to persist,
I am not going to give up so easy
I can’t see anything clearly, here it’s all hazy
But still you won’t hear my plight
‘Cause I on my own can fight,
Be it the gods or the evil
This fight won’t be civil
I will crush everything that stands in my path
No one will survive my wrath,
My failure taught me a lesson
When you have no fear, you blossom
You outshine the sun above
Just make sure you are dove
To the good and the just,
To succeed you need the lust,
The hunger to survive
And the hope to be alive,
Remember your loved ones believe in you
And their dream is within you.

I won’t be frail
And I won’t fail
‘Cause my failure is decided by me
‘Cause today the gods are in me………………………………

Smile

Words are all what I have to give,

And your smile is what I need to live..................
Draining with your tears is my life
So please stop, and start to smile
So that the threat on my life
Is gone and once again I am agile.

Words are all what I have to give,
And your smile is what I need to live.
So let’s strike a deal
You take my source of meal
And give me your precious laughter
And I will serve as a slave for ever after.

Tears don’t suit you
Grief pollutes you
So be clean and pollute free
Just promise to be always glee.
When you are sad and down
Everything turns black and brown
Blackened by the tears falling down
Making every face look frown
So for the world’s sake smile
And make my home a happy isle.

When you smile and you are happy
All other emotions go sappy
It’s you and your bright face
Which gives this world its grace,
So laugh out loud and don’t be shy
‘Cause your laughter produces joy,
My heart’s going down please give a smile
‘Cause all I need to live is your smile…………………….

Hope

All we need to live is love

All we need to live is hope……………….

Tears smacking away my smiles
I was too weak since I had walked miles,
To give it another fight
‘Cause I was drowning in my plight,
Losing my potency every moment
I was all by my own to lament,
That is when I learnt my wrongs
When played by god tongs,
I learned what I actually need
And left my useless greed
Of materialistic mold
And things that could be sold.
All I needed then was a hand
But I couldn’t see anyone in this distant land,
I was feeling lonely for the first time
Feeling being imprisoned for my crime,
Dreaming the past, when I had my own shrine
And Appalled by today where I wasn’t even worth a dime,
I learned past
Doesn’t last
To make your today any better and leisurely,
If you are not good today you have to live it bitterly.
Kicked by the time I only craved,
This should not be the place I am graved,
But there was no one to blame
For my dying soul and for me being lame.
I thought it was time to give up
Then suddenly someone appeared and said ‘sup,
Over excited and elated I wasn’t able
To have my mouth even drop a syllable,
Then somehow I got on my feet
And went towards him to greet,
Well I was astonished to know that he wasn’t real
And I was standing as if it wasn’t a big deal.
Then I learned all what I needed to lope
Was something we all call hope,
Desire to live again
Desire to gain,
The want, the hunger to succeed
Is all what we need
To come out for any trouble
And to be strong and be able,
But this hope needs a dream
As bright as a gleam
Which we can only have if
We have someone who thinks about us every jiff,
We have our friends, our family and our loved ones
Who are always there for protecting us from the life stones.

We need them for living in dove
We need them to have hope
All we need to live is love
All we need to live is hope……………….

It’s time

Because it’s our time

To show our shine........

It’s time to come out of your slime
It’s time to be sublime.
It’s time to show your worth
It’s time to take your reserved berth.
‘Cause it’s our time
To show our shine.

Luck is something you don’t need
‘Cause it’s like a dead seed,
It doesn’t even complement your hard work
All that will help you is your work.
Don’t you feel lost and down
‘Cause it your chance to wear the crown,
‘Cause it’s our time
To show our shine.

Today is ours, tomorrow is nothing to worry about
‘Cause today is our opponent in this bout.
We have no partners today in sight
‘Cause this one is our fight,
It’s time to flag the winning triumph
It’s time to relax and have our favorite shrimp.

‘Cause it’s our time
To show our shine...................

Realization

‘Cause today is not about me

Today is about the people who love me…………………..

The dreams fading away in the wind
The soul is slipping away; it seems to be the end.
The heart is giving up on beating
Well I think this is my last sitting,
Have some mercy and give the final blow
I don’t want it to be painful and slow.
The white light I was talking to, articulated
And asked me “are you defeated”?
Buried in my grave I answered
Well I can’t say i succeeded.
The divine power said success and win
Are relative words and defeat is not a sin.
Thwarted by own self, I tried getting on my feet
It was too difficult the ground below me seemed sleet.
The divine man said you can ask for assistance
And he said don’t ever show any resistance,
When someone tries to assist you and help you
‘Cause they are just trying to show they care for you
They are not trying to show that you are too weak
Or you can’t win or you are not at all sleek
They just can see you in pain
That too without any gain,
Oh then I realized the cause of my failure
Everything was clear nothing obscure
I was too self-slimed
I stepped on people and climbed.

The only thing I now crave
Is to say an apology
But here I am jammed in my grave,
And my vision is going foggy.

Oh I haven’t given up
But I am too weak to come up
From this grave, this muddle
I want to get to my saddle,
I want to correct all of my mistakes
This time its afterlife what I have on stakes.
Oh I am not that selfish, I am not that feeble
I am strong enough and I am able,
Today not even your gods can stop me
‘Cause today it is not about me
It’s about the people who cared
To whom I just slurred.

Creeping out of my grave
Made me strong and brave,
To go see the slayed hearts
The damage of my filthy darts,
Today I am doomed of my own actions
We have to pay for our debt burdened transactions.
The word of the day is realization
And I am ready for my redemption
No one can today, stop me
‘Cause today is not about me
Today is about the people who loved me
Today is about the people who cared
Even when their hearts were slayed.

Today is the tomorrow of yesterday
Standing for salvation it’s all about today
‘Cause today is not about me
Today is about the people who love me…………………..

I Cried

Because you are the one who gives me smiles

And you are the one who make me laugh............


I cry today in your absence
I really miss your presence.
I have given it a hard try
But nothing helps, I just want to cry
Till all my tears dry
I just want to cry.

Remembering the times you gave me smiles
I can walk a thousand miles
To come to your pose
And be very close
‘Cause you are the one who gives me smiles
And you are the one who make me laugh.

Now I understand why I cried
Why nothing helped, what so ever I tried
I was missing you and your felicitous essence
All I was missing was your presence
‘Cause you are the one who gives me smiles
And you are the one who make me laugh.

Now I ask the god why you are so far
Why I can’t jump off this distance bar
And reach you
And be with you
Right now that’s all what I want to do
With this other world I have nothing to do
‘Cause you are the one who gives me smiles
And you are the one who make me laugh.

No one is here to listen to my cries
No one is here to tell me happy lies.
Where were you when I howled?
Where were you when my heart called?
I think you didn’t notice me cry
‘Cause today you are the one who made me cry.

Well I can’t blame you to be not here
It’s just once you weren’t there
To wipe off my tears,
You were here for years.
I can just say I love you
‘Cause you are the one who gives me smiles
And you are the one who make me laugh.

Happy Birthday

I will start off by wishing you a very happy birthday
And letting you know that I really cherish this day.
May you live a thousand years more
And not even a day in those is sore.
As today is your natal day
I have made you this array
Of phrases, feelings and words
Defining your place in my worlds.

Celebrate, fete and have a blast
It’s your birthday make it last
In the webs of your memories
For the coming centuries.
It is like a privilege for me to know you
And I just want to say a very happy birthday to you.

As the verse seemed too small to me
I extend it by saying if there’s a party, do call me
Don’t take this one as the jape
I have already prepared my cape
Just tell the spot where to reach and when
I will reach on time in any glen.

Be jolly, happy and felicitous on everyday
Today is special because it’s your birthday
There’s no sorrow no obstacle I won’t slay
To make today a memorable day
Today is special as it’s your birthday.

Well to end with I have the same to say
A very felicitous and happy birthday………………….

Redeemed life

Because you are my life you are my essence…………………………..

Walking down the line I never looked back
Always with my attitude and my sack
I walked down on people who cared
I don’t know why, I think I was scared.
But when I was in the mist of cyclone
Of life, I was alone all alone.
No one to give a hand
And take me to safe land
I looked with arthritic and thirsty eyes all around
I couldn’t find anyone who would answer to my afflictive sound.

That day departed by the wheels of my own cart
I learned the importance of the use of heart.
From that day I started my redemption
No one could have denied my determination
Waiting for the day when I will be redeemed
The wait was long, never ending it seemed.

But soon it was the day when I was forgiven
Whatever I asked for I was given
All my family and my friends
Impressed by different trends
They exempted me from my redemption
And welcomed me to their celebration.

That day feeling the warmth around me
My blinded eyes came to senses and made me see
That all that matters is the laughter of the ones
We call our loved ones
All what I searched for when I was alone
Is here, right here at the placed I call my home.
I searched for I don’t know what
Oh this is the lesson that time taught
You can survive a drought, you can survive a flood
You can fight to live till the last drop of blood
But when it comes to the heart
All it needs is another heart
Beating for you
Lamenting for you
All it needs is the proof of your presence
‘Cause you are my life you are my essence…………………………..

Killing the despondency

You are the God you are the Time

Sometimes the time seems wrong
To sing any of the song.
The world seems repulsive and against us
What so ever we do, all the people detain us.
In the time of this disparity
We go to our friends for clarity
But they also talk like the world
Telling us things like they are the herald
At this time we actually call the god to help
Telling him that the world is treating us like a kelp
And then we get the answer from inside
It just says look for the brighter side.
We are puzzled and dazzled by the fact
That are there two sides in the act?
We use all our optimistic beliefs
Turing all the stones and all the leaves
Looking for the brighter ray of hope
Which can make us felicitous and ready to cope
With things even which our out of our scope
And help us find another way rather than elope.


Soon we find the brighter side
And leave all our sorrows aside
So when the things are out of control
Just think that you are on a roll
Enjoy the ride as much you can
Because some day you will end up in san
And there to survive you will need memories of the past
Which can make your day and make your smile last .

So whenever you are down and frown
Just look in the mirror, I bet you look like a clown
Get yourself suited up
Stop your freighting bulb
Tell the negativism around you
It at no cost can drown you
Tell it that it cannot cod
Because here you are the god.

No person no god no circumstance
Can take you down, so stand with your head high stance
Don’t even look at the problem or even glance
Because it exists till it matter to you, not till the end of time
Make a statement see to it that it becomes a rhyme
Because you are the god you are the time………………………………………….

Sorry

This one is for you only you
As you are you.
From the beating heart at this end
To you, one of my best friend
I know I matter to you
And as I know you
I know I hurted you to the core
And for me it’s equally sore
All I can say is a sorry from my heart
Sorry for my words I used as a dart
Sorry for my actions and my conduct
Sorry for hurting and my bruising sculpt
Sorry for the pain
Sorry for the lain.

I can’t look in those eyes which had tears
I kept them away from pain for years
And see what I did today
Now I can just curse the day.
My heart is refusing to beat, I say to it don’t worry
I console it by saying someone may accept our sorry.
It all depends on you
All I can say is, I care for you
Please get me out of the plight
And please end this fight
Please end this period of fright
And fill my dark turned world with light.

It’s humble sorry from me to you
Just because you are you…………………………………..

It Wasn’t Love

I read many verses
And heard many curses
They were not for me
But from some he to some she.
So I decided to write on the feeling called love
Don’t mind it this one is with a bit of dove.

I don’t know that much about the feeling called love
But I know it’s a mixed with bit of ginger and a bit of clove
I have seen my friends getting shy and sly
It seems they had got the love supply
The feeling about the one makes you mad
And separation from the one makes you sad
All I know the people who fall in love are glad
Because they take their love as a clad.

Now let us discuss on the break ups
They seem to be painful and shake ups
Break the person from inside
It’s the emotional side
Of the warm heart that pumped once
Now all we can do is just take a glance
At it because it’s bruised that bad
That even a look can make you sad.

To all the people who have been through that time
Just think she/he wasn’t worth a dime
And take another dive in the slime
You may find the face with the smile
The soul enriching your heart with love
I can just say if you broke up it wasn’t love…………………………….

Friendz..........

Someone once said me to define A Friend
I said, the person who is the dead end
To my wrong paths is my true friend.
The only soul to hold me without a touch
To sense my pain without my howl
To always be, by the side of my couch
Making sure that I do not fall.

A person who cares for me
And loves me
For the real me
Irrespective of the fact
I m broken or intact
Always by my side telling me
I will never win as gambler
And never lose as a hard worker
Making me want to be the best
Way ahead from the rest.

Telling my heart without saying a word that
Even if the world is on the other side
I will find my friend standing by my side
Ready to take the pain
Without any gain
Just for me his friend
Till the very end

Friends are the only assets we make during a lifetime
Because they are the only ones by our side even in the deplorable time.

To all my friends I just want to say
I know that you care
And you will always care
And so will I…………………………………

Paa

For me you are omnipotent and divine
As you always fulfilled my whims and wishes.
Whenever I was sad you made me smile
Whenever I was down you gave me speeches
And fill the valour and the strength in me
And whenever I stand above the crowd I feel you in me.
For the times i was stupid and idiotic
You were always there to fix my attic.

You are my Dad my Paa my father
We are inseparable like soap and lather.
You are the god I worship
As I am just a snip
Of the mighty, dandy and groovy you
I can just say I LOVE YOU.

No words no verses can show my respect
I can just say using all my intellect
I love you, admire you and idolize you
As you are my god and you are my Paa…………………………………

From a brother to another.................

As u are you

I grew with you
I am proud about that.
I laughed with you
I am happy about that.
I screamed at you
I cry about that.
But u still love me
I am thankful for that.
Four years back when you went
It was like somebody took my 50 percent.
And then u came home in holidays
We had fun in infinite ways.
Then I accompanied you to the railway station
To see u off to your destination.
Neither I cried nor you
I just waved a hand to you.
As you started disappearing with the train
My inconsolable eyes started to drain
That was when I learned what is pain.
You are the one who taught me to live
Because u are the world in which I live.
Bhai you are that idol for me
That I can never be
And u are that person for me
Who is more imp than myself to me.
I love you
As u are you………………

MAA……………………

You are the person I love the most
Reasons are many but I am lost,
That are you god, are you divine
Because with you around, I am always fine.

Your presence gives me confidence and the vigour
To face and win all battles with courage and valour,
Your touch makes all of my fear go away
And you are always there to show me the way.

I just want you to know
My words are too low,
To define you,
And I love you.

Simply
You are the smile of my face
You have an unparallel grace
Which reminds me of the fact,
That you the reason I am intact.

You are the reason I am alive
And there is a debt on me I call life

Gifted to me by you
All I say that I love you.

The heart that beats inside me
And the soul that resides in me
Always just reminds me
That you are the reason I am me.
I just want to thank my god
And the almighty lord
To be always at my side,
Having me in your site
Makes me feel I am right.

No words, no gestures, and no feelings I could find
That let me describe you what I find you in my mind
These words are just too small
To describe you in all
I can just say you are my mother
I know that tells you everything I want to say
Just because you are my MAA……………………

Atonement

Strings, chords are razor sharp
And we can’t even carp
Against the lords of time
Cause we are not even worth a dime.
The worlds shrinking in despair
All people saying I don’t want to share
Where is the humaneness, the love?
To touch someone I don’t need a glove
Where is the passion, the love?

Hatred, meanness and disparity
Is all I can see in clarity
Why is the good shadowed
Why is the good swallowed
Where is the passion where is the love?
I have decided to rebel against the shove.

Even if I stand alone in the mist of misery
In the darkness and in the weather of shivery
I am proud
Free of the fake shroud
Because I will be the one to see the rays hope
And for that I’m ready to cope
With all the risks and dangers
I am ready to fight for all the strangers
Cause I can’t take no more
I have to get to the shore
And I have the felling from the core
Oh this time I am damn sure
The sun will be out shiny and bright
And will cease all the fright
And a new world will be born
Full of love and full of corn
Where the passion and the humaneness
Will be in plenty with no grayness
Nothing will be colorless
Everything painted in love and joy
And then I will be shy and coy
Seeing the love around me
Feeling the pride in me
I want to fight
To do everything right
I just want to fight
To do everything right
To make this world one of the best ones
For my family friends and loved ones
It’s all for them, it’s all for you
Just because you are you ……………………………

Proud To Be An INDIAN

I come from a country of great integrity .I come from a country having one of the best economies in the world the “family economy”, where each house has its own financial minster. I come from a country where family comes before god .I come from a country where parents are worshiped. I come from “INDIA” and I am damn proud to be born in this country. So if some blind tells me that there is a puddle in front of me I will care to check but any individual of any status and authority tells me that my country is not good enough I won’t even care to explain him that he/she is wrong because you can only treat a blind whose eyes are defective not the one whose eyes are perfectly fine, who has chosen not to see.

I AM DONE NOW

My heart cries without a tear in my eyes, belive me it hurts even more. It may be true that someone close to your heart has gone far away, but just the thought of your pain stabs me right into the heart.
Terrorism this word has gone so much deep into our lives that it affects us unknowingly and constantly and now it is time that even if we have to cut ourselves to take that out from the system it has to be done. The limits had been broken way back, now is the time we go out of our way to dig it up and cut it into pieces and burn it and eat the dammed ashes to make sure it is gone forever. People innocent people dying for no reason, it’s done now no more. Each terrorist whenever took hold should be shot then and there, the saying that don’t hate the person doing wrong hate the wrong doings does not apply here, because that is for humans and these people sorry these terrorists do not fall under the category of humans, so they don’t have a right to live. Also, the shit about circumstances is not applicable here, because I know this for sure that no pain or suffering is that much horrible that makes a human a terrorist.
They have no religion no race they are fucking bugs which have to be killed, not only killed but killed, treated and made to vanish.It doesn’t matter it is done by peace talks or meetings or anything, just the word
‘terrorism’ should be erased from the dictionary. Tears are over now, what is left, is anger and an unbearable pain reminding that we are done now, no more, nor we can take nor we will. Its time to take an action for our side, we should not ,we cannot and we will not wait for our chance to blast of into pieces and get killed in a so called terrorist attack. It is high time now, we take action or we force the government to take severe and effective steps because I m done now and so should you be, they have to be stopped and will be.

I want you to shed a tear, I want you to cry out loud and pour out all the pain inside you,
I want you to never loose hope; never lose that glow of your face, I want you,
To stand and fight today because if today is not yours tomorrow will be
And if today is dark, tomorrow will be
Light
And if today is death tomorrow will be
LIFE.

DEFINATIONS-III

Will- Super power we all have.

Hope-What we should never, but we do always lose.

Defination- A definition I gave.

Cellphone-Does not catch signal when you actually need it to.

Telephone-Used to get all the information for exams, just the night before appearing in them.

P.J-Used by some people to show that their sense of humor is not that bad. (They meant it to be a joke)

Microsoft-Apple copied even before launch.

Google-Site which tells the truth about Americans:-that they are Fools.

Yahoo-I haven’t used that in the last decade. (Ask some bill-gates fan)

Africa-Rich in Coco. (I am an Optimist)

Optimist-Someone who tries to see the better side even when there is only one side which is appalling.

Scope-The word that misguides students to take the science stream.

Lawyer-Someone paid to lie and prove the well-known fact that judicial system is incompetent.

Newton-A man who wanted his name in every book. (Well he kind of succeeded)

Principal-Some are nice (trikey), some irritating (karketta), some just bad (panka),some say they are innocent (nirdosh).

Teachers-Only some know English but all of them try to speak the language. (I wonder why?)

End- Which my definations won’t.

Table-The instrument I am best at playing.

Bathroom-Where I am the Indian Idol. (I agree that is the worst music reality show)

Reality shows-Whatever it may be on seems to be comedy. (Exceptions are always there)

Vocabulary- Something I won’t ever pronounce correctly.

Shyness-I sold it for a chocolate (ask someone who still have some).

Grammar-One of the many things I have to improve.

Hindi-The subject in which my teacher said I will just pass and I scored 93%.

Art-Something I really respect. (Reason-I don’t even have a bit of that)

Talent- Something what get you pays and that too in huge proportions.

Exam-Something in which if you fail shouldn’t bother you.

Fuck-The Facebook word. (I don’t know from where they took the ‘u’)


Will it be continued????????????????????????....................

DEFINATIONS -II

Truth- Always comes out (majority of the time by itself).

Lie-I can, you should never.

Fan- Three Bladed thing used by Students to say “I Quit” symbolically.

IPL-Where cheer girls are hired to sway the batsmen and the fielders. (That also gives them the right to charge anything for a ticket)

T.V-An idiot box on which idiotic ads are shown in which a boy attracts thousands of girls by using some deo (well you all also use the same deo knowing it will not work but still thinking that “what if it does”)I
said you people ‘cause I am allergic to deos ( of course.)

Sachin- A man clearing all agonistic doubts.

Man Mohan Singh –A puppet without any strings attached to it.

Sonia Gandhi –A Puppeteer skilled in handling puppets without strings.

Heart- Thing which people associate with everything other than its actual work pumping blood.

Brain-The thing given by god to a species called Homo sapiens to apply logic. (But is used rarely)

Guitar-A cool thing, which I don’t know how to play.

Night-The time of day I start getting active. (Nowadays, before that I was also normal)

Midnight-The time I am at my agillic high point (that’s not a word but I know you got what I was trying
to say)

Dawn-Time of day when I start feeling sleepy.

Morning-Good night.

Gum- Something I am addicted to.

Sickness –That’s me (wasn’t a joke nor sarcasm, ask the people who have at least known me from
Dec2008)

Maths-Something I used to think I was good at.

Movies-Name it, if it was good I can tell you the story.

Caste-the lamest thing I ever heard of (actually I have no idea what it is).

Religion- I Respect all from the heart.

India-The best country, why?-the right gods are worshipped (parents)

We-Short for when you are with me.

Hate-Everyone who is inhumane. (Does not exists if you r humane)

Reservation-I don’t want to use slang language (without it I can’t explain)

Teachers-People who are getting paid a lot less than they are entitled to. (They bear us everyday claps)

Studies-one of the many things I am not that good at.

C++-A language that cannot be learned by sane individuals.

Electricity-Defines wastage in India.

Mosquitoes-Insects welcomed with claps (I know it was a bad one but one can be digested)

Failure- There are too many subjects to name (Actually it’s not defined because nothing such thing
exists no one other than ourselves can tell us that we are a failure)

IIT-Physics on place of math and vice-versa.


Will be continued……………………..

DEFINATIONS -I

Friends - People you NEED, because the day they aren’t there will be the day your life gets over.
Parents- Mortal GODs. Reason that I exist(literally). Indebted to them for giving me life.
Food-What we actually work for.
School-mine is Campion (I don’t think I have to say anything else)
Life- Defined by your loved ones
Success- As rare as Halley’s Comet(nothing else to write)
Love- (with a gal) Inexperienced. Otherwise- what our soul needs to live.
Work-Something we do to have food in our belly.
Home-The best place where you will ever live.
Music-Something I don’t have knowledge about but I love to experiment with.
Books-Depends on content (vary from-my life to I will rather die)
Me –A bit ugly, stupid, and emotional and having a bit repartee but still people can stand me. (Thanks)
You-Depends (not on who you are) on time. (Joke tha) Awesome and better than me.
God-I am too small to define almighty. (Ask an atheist)
Government- Essential, corrupt, sometimes our mistake and other times someone else’s mistake.
Death-Too far away. Separates you from the ones you call yours and defines your mortality.
Water-Essentiality defined.(when you are actually thirsty) Otherwise thing we all waste.
Maa -An angel I can see touch hug and kiss.
Papa- The man who I love the most.
Bhai-The man who I love the second most and the kind of friend we all want.
Family-My World defined in a word.
Girlfriend-A friend who is girl (this is what I used to think) Now- what is that, is it even a word.
Boyfriend-A friend who is boy (this is what I used to think), Now-ask your girlfriend.
Afterlife-Golden word which can make a dying person happy. (A golden word on which I wrote a story)
Hell-The place sometimes I tell people to go and sometime they tell me to, but no one knows where it is.
Enemy-Well I don’t have one. (Don’t know if you are)
Soul-Not yet proved to be existing but still something divine every one of us have. (Proves our equality)
Best-Something you can always go past.
Problem-Me for many people, term used to define anything we don’t want to try to solve.

Will be continued……………………………..

I LEARNED

Waking up in the morning is really difficult and then going for a walk, are you kidding me, but today in the morning when I went on a walk just to breathe in some fresh air, the first breathe I took in, made all of that worth it. I felt my lungs, when the chilled air went in it was indefinable, I actually understood the biology of my lungs I could feel my bronchi-oles. The feeling was awesome. When after sometime I was under open sky I could see why poets write so much on nature the first rays of sun glimmered into my eyes while I could still see the moon there staring at me on the other side of the sky. The sunlight enlightening the leaves of the trees and made me actually appreciate the so called modern art which we cannot understand by the naked eye, to appreciate which we have to wear the spectacles of the artist and value his art. Then I saw the mother bird feeding its child directly into its stomach (as it seemed to me) that taught me and reminded me of the love and care I have been rendered by my parents to me. I then and there picked a flower which was fallen off from the tree for my mother .Now it was time that the cars and the buses came out on the roads to get people to reach their destination. Then I noticed that a long car which was approaching towards me , the car was awesome so it attracted my attention, inside it was sitting a man really worried and angry talking rather shouting on somebody on the phone, and the next moment I saw a kid in torn clothes without a footwear happily running in the field and that taught me that someone called god is up there looking after all of us, accounting our smiles ,he may give us smiles more than we have in our accounts but he never keeps one for himself. While I was coming back home I asked myself that who was happy from both of them and someone answered “Happiness is just the perception of optimism”. I still wonder who was that someone, was he the almighty, or was it me talking to myself. Whatever it was I am happy that I learned something, I learned how to be happy and I think that is why we all are living, to be happy and to enjoy our god given life; which we sometimes in the race of life overlook we overlook our goal to be happy, we overlook our goal our destination to reach where, I don’t know. So I just want to say strive to get whatever you want to get in life but never forget what your goal is and also remember that a goal is a goal it has the same value for you and me so value the goal not your goal; value happiness, felicity, prosperity even if its not yours value it because it means the same to someone else and that someone else can be you or will be you, so be felicitous be jolly and live the life to its fullest because it is the gift to you from god treasure it for always…………………….

The mistake that “GOD” did…………..

I am grateful to god for creating humanity, creating life and creating me; I couldn’t stop myself from mentioning the creation of me in specific because it should show that it’s my article. But seriously I am really thankful to god for creating life; creating people around me, the people I love the people who make me who I am, but then I once sat thinking that what is it that went wrong with the so to be known “ perfect invention of god” known as humans, I thought and thought how come the humans turned to wars and bloodshed how the hell this shit happened and then out of sudden i got it ,I got what the god didn’t see but first I will tell you how I got it.

I was sitting in a park alone, now please don’t take that I am an alone kind of person I have in-numerous number of friends as of I know, but still I was sitting in the park and small kids were playing there, all of them laughing and cherishing the best moments of life; the “cherishing the best moments of life” part was my thought because they can’t know it ,can they? .So they were playing and laughing, it was a pleasure watching them and then by mistake a child slapped another one ,now you would be thinking how can you slap someone by mistake, that’s right because I didn’t tell you that they were just rotating around with their arms outstretched ,so by mistake one of them slapped the other and the other one fell down, now you could see guilt in the innocent child’s eyes who slapped, the guilt was damn intense as if he had murdered the girl, and then he went to her and said that he was sorry actually he held his ears and said the most humble sorry I have ever seen and then by his actions I understood that he asked the girl, that should he slap himself once to show that he is really sorry and to my surprise the girl said yes, now you think why was I surprised, well I was surprised because I thought that only grown up girls are like that but then I thought that maybe it’s not their fault it’s in their nature but when the boy stretched his arm to slap himself the small girl went and stopped his arm and both started laughing. I thought the god had made no mistakes.

After seeing the incident I thought that, what it needs to be forgiven for any mistake we do, what actually it takes is just a genuine and honest sorry direct from the warm beating heart, and the look in the eye which tells I won’t repeat it, I won’t repeat it knowingly and also a beating heart on the other side who can feel this and see this, that’s all you need. But now when I came to the real world, “the world of the so called adults” I came to know the sorry that looked honest was a manipulated one, the mistake was knowingly repeated, why? I looked in the sky hoping to meet eyes with the god and ask him silently rather tell him that there was some fault.

I read in newspapers about terrorism, I read in books about wars, I read about crime and bloodshed and hatred, why in the name of god such devilish, inhumane, intolerable things came to existence, what the hell led us all here to this midst of sadness and inhumanity. Then I thought that definitely there is an error and it clicked, then and there out of nowhere ,it is the same thing what makes us what today we are materialistically ,it’s the same thing which took us from the stone age and brought us here in the core of modernization ,it is the same thing which provided us logic ,the same thing that people like Einstein and Newton applied for the very best ,the same thing I am using right now to write this ,God’s invention of human was damn perfect without this one thing we call the “brain” the mind .Now you may think with that mind of yours which I just told is an error that god did, that this person is a lunatic ,he is mad and crass he doesn’t know shit about what is he saying ,but please give the chance to explain and if still you didn’t agree then I will keep quite saying that everyone has their own views and perspectives.
So pay attention and think deeply and be honest when you answer me. What is it takes you to laugh, smile and be happy? It is not the brain it’s the heart, the soul and I think that is what matters smiles and happiness ,that is the one and only motive we have rather we should have. Think deeply you don’t need your i Pods you want music, it’s the melody and the rhythm of music which tickles your heart in an unspeakable way, you don’t need your hi-fi digital cameras you want the permanent memories of your life, everything materialistic we long for is associated with something emotional and something which our heart and soul needs to survive and that thing essential for the soul and the heart is only love nothing materialistic just divine love which gives a smile on your face anything which makes you happy in the inside that is all we want.

Now you are in doubt, that is this lunatic correct ,but I came in doubt too when I saw people like mother Teresa and mahatma Gandhi and many more who apply their same brain which I was calling to be error to do some good to do very much good for the masses ;now I get the perfect picture damn clear it’s like I am wearing the perfect glasses for me and the picture is crystal clear ,the difference between the greats I told about which took me into doubt didn’t just used their brains but it was their heart and soul mixed with the brain ,now I understand that god thought of brain as they used it not as the shitheads use it. All I can say that it was the perfect and necessary mistake god did by giving us brain, now it depends on us how we use it, do we use it for the good no actually we all use it for good but we use it for our good, well there is no problem until and unless we do not step on someone others soul and heart using our brain .So while finding the answer I came up with the same question I started with what error did god did, or is it us who are committing the errors but if it is us then it’s the almighty’s mistake to have made us this way, I don’t give an answer for this but I propose one: god made us different from each other with something missing in me and something in the other ,God gave us all the same mind and heart but almighty didn’t set a path for us he didn’t show us which way to go because that is why he provided us the brain to choose by applying logic and he gave us the heart to make sure we don’t go wrong ,to make sure there is love in the world ,to make sure the imperfections he gave us all to be different didn’t hindered in the way of ours in finding a place to live in this world ,to find a place we are happy and prosperous .But the difficulty arises when we stop using our heart and soul for such matters and I am really sorry to say that is not the trait in humans which god gave us ,god gave the heart not just to pump blood down and up the body but he gave that to us, to feel and to be humane . It is the essence of humanity to have peace in the world ,to have love spread all over the world and to make this sentence without any buts that “I love everyone “. Since it is not like that I have changed the sentence to “I love everyone and everyone indicates everyone who is humane”.

God did the right thing it is we who do the mistakes and this is the only reason he is called “GOD”.